death to meatballs

OK, I don't know who reads my occasional posts. And personally I don't know why you would. Anyway, I really don't know what's going on with me. I seem to be getting worse, even though I've tried new things that are clinically proven to help depressed people. My siste3r asked me the other day what causes me to get worse? what are you doing differently or not doing differently? I told her I did not know, that I was was trying to do things to help..I'm more sad..for what I don't know. I cry more. for what I don't know. My body is in a lot of constant physical pain, why I don't know.ok, I'm done writing for now, my computer is being stupid. please pray. again. ugh.